bye vacation :( mamimiss ko pagpupuyat. at ung buong araw na hindi busy.. walang assignment, walang projects, wlang hassle.. haha ito lang pinagkaabalahan ko since March 9 :D sayang bat di agad ako naglaro, dapat april pa lang.. haha
ang saya lng mglaro ng shaiya. kaso ang weak ko. pero okay lang naunlock ko ung UM :) msaya nko nun haha. nmiss ko tloy ung laro na tantra :( fav ko yun nung elem ako. wala na ata ngaun nun :( .. haha baka ndi na rin mkpaglaro sa pasukan :( pero tatry pdin. bsta msaya ko ngaung bkasyon na to :) heheeeee .. foreveralone pinangalan ko sa isang char. ko :)) nakuha ko sa tumblr.. xD sakto nman kc lagi syang magisa :) at ang dami ko din plang nkaaway sa larong yan, mga 7. whaha! sana bumagal oras ^^ ayoko na pumasok. lalo na sa mga subject na accounting. -_- .. :)
you may not understand what i am saying lololol. i just need to open up with my diary :). this is it, the saddest truth in my life no-ones ever heard of. THAT …. i have been studying so hard for my entire highschool life. i take my studies seriously just to get their appreciation, i spend almost all of my time to study without giving time for the things that i really wanted to do. all my life, ive been hiding in this ‘attitude that is NOT-SO-ME. since my elem days, I’ve never wanted to study, i used to take it slowly — EVERYTHING. i used to be happy, i enjoy my life, i play games all the time, that is the time, i can truly say “i am happy:(” and now thing’s changed. i am here now, trying to please my parents that i am a “good daughter” , and a fucking ”good student”, im tired of trying to be perfect — to have those perfect scores. i want a time. a time to do things that i love to do so. :( . i want to graduate to my dream school, where my future will be -you know :]. but how are they going to send me to a big school if ____________i think, they’ll be throwing up my future, having me graduated at a school where all my sacrifices in HS are not worth. gaawd. 3: i just feel so unhappy right now. ifeel so useless, i mean, ‘what can i do’? what the.. im just a little scared that i might fail to study at my dream school -.- i dont wanted to be something that i am not. BUT I DID. I ACTUALLY DID. i dont even want those clothes that i wear, but i tried to be more conservative. just to be appreciated as ‘the one who loves to study, the one who will never get a failing grade at school’ . :[ people, im really not smart, its obvious. i just study so fvcking hard. that is why my report card, it looks so, idk. but what if, what if, i follow my heart, and forget those studies, be the one thats me, and enjoy? i wonder what happens o.O … life’s really complicated. i am really jealous to those fricken people who’s happy with such little things. i always wanted to be like that o.O.. i just wish, wish that something will come to my life, and make me feel happy, make me feel that life is worth livin, make me say that “i am happy” and will make my life be complete, fill up those empty spaces in my heart and will not let me go. ♥ :) lol. if i will compute those hours i spent just thinking about that ‘something’ who will make my life colorful and turn those grey moments into something that i can cherish, maybe all in all that’s 6months 8days 12hours. LOL. xD just kidding. its a song. i know you know :> bwahahaha
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Posted on June/12/2010
aw :( that ‘dream school’ was a sad part, the day i found out i couldn’t make it to my dream school, it felt so baad. :| (moved on) :) i’m happy right now. :) hahahaa
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when you and the one you love have different worlds. when you, made him your world while he has his own and you’re not even included in it. </3
I always tell her I love her. Almost everyday. So how am I supposed to make this mothers day special for my mom? thatweirdfeeling >:D
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Why we’re living in this world, there’s a reason. && We must know what is it, because I can see that many people do not know the real reason why they exist and so they don’t value their life. In order for us to be happy everyday, we must know why we’re created in the first place and why in billions of sperm, ours was the strongest for we are the one that was given life by the egg cell :-) and why in millions of animals we were not one of them, and why we are sent to where we are right now, in every why’s there’s a reason. As a teenager living in a modern life, I can say that, I don’t have much time to value some things (I just thought they’re nothing) but in reality they’re the ones that keeps me going. I can say that sometimes I find gadgets and stuffs more important than things that could help some people and at some point of my life I realize that I was wrong for living life not knowing that gadgets do not need so much of our time, not knowing that friends are still the best company to keep instead of computer games, not knowing that family should have more space in our hearts than useless things, and not knowing that God should be the center of them all. Not knowing that living life to leave some footprints behind was the main reason why we exist. By saying footprints, I am saying that as a human being that’s lucky to be given life, we should leave history, a history that will always tell them what we did when we’re still alive.
Oftentimes, we are deceived by money, we always think it will make us happy but at the end of the day you’ll realize you can live without millions. You’ll realize that a simple job and a simple earning will be enough if it can feed you and your family and if you can have the things that you NEED- food, shelter and clothing. and if it’s not excessive food, shelter and clothing, the money that you earn from a simple job will be alright! But I am not saying that we should not dream about having excess money and not to dream about being rich! Even me, I set goals in life to become rich and I have my own purpose why I wanted to be. Daydreaming of becoming rich and popular someday is done by every single human creature on earth, but the reason why we want to be rich is very different from one another, others wanna be rich to help street children and to establish foundation to help other people. others wanna be rich to support the needs of their families. Others wanna be rich to have luxurious items, that would be fine if they don’t brag just to get money, they don’t steal just to be rich and if they don’t tend to become greedy, that’s alright to dream of a luxurious life if that’s really your ambition in life and a part of it still should be to help other people; but if we’ll be wanting to have a luxurious life just to please ourselves and not to please God and to take for granted some people we knew will be deceived by our money or to use money just to hurt others, well we might be taking the wrong way. Finish a college course, work with your dignity, have some real friends even if there were few, if they’re real, they will surely make you happy. help your family members, your mother and father who helped you all your life, your brothers and sisters, money is not necessarily needed but your love for them surely will be. If you’ll know how to truly love them, they’ll love you back. A luxurious life will make you enjoy life, but it will not give you happiness and contentment if you’re not with those people you love. By telling you this, I’ve used a portion of my purpose in life, to help. How I wish I could help you to find your purpose. But someday in your life you’ll wake up and you will know why you were born. Why your birthday is celebrated every year. Why you have your parents and why you’ll be a parent to a child someday. Why you were where you are right now. Learn how to value your life and how to use your time to important things because you cannot go back to every day that passed by, whether it’s February 1, February 2, you cannot go back to February 1 2011 anymore right? there’s only one certain date in every year, you can never go back to it so live everyday knowing that you did what is right and knowing that you did not waste your time. Always know that life in Heaven will be forever-till eternity and life on earth is temporary, by that you would realize that it’s better to be good while you’re still alive than to perish in hell and be good there, God can’t save you anymore once you’re there. So live life to the fullest, live your life according to God but still have fun, it’s a matter of balancing things. Make amends with other people, earn friends and treat people right, I’m sure you’ll have a happy journey in life :)
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